Published in Sneaky, 2014
Ethan Edwards is a retired engineer in his mid-50s. He has two adult daughters, maintains a decent network of friends and is an active participant in his local church choir. He's also a paedophile.
Ethan is the co-founder of a US online support organisation, Virtuous Paedophiles, that caters to the non-offender and stresses self-restraint to ensure that no child is harmed. Ethan discovered his paedophilia in the midst of some late-life sexual exploration. Growing up in a conservative background that had ingrained him with an aversion to pornography, he had tentatively began to explore it. When his girlfriend objected, Ethan resigned himself to masturbating to the websites of department stores that featured children modelling clothes. The subjects of his desire became younger and younger until Ethan realised that he was attracted to very young, prepubescent girls.